1.Journey To Descent
2.Moving On
i'm so afraid to have you feel like this
but you're so afraid of second chances
despite the walls growing in between us
i'm moving on
i'm so afraid of feeling like this
you're so afraid of going past us
you just betrayed the one to never turn their back
i'm moving on
this is the last time you will betray me
this is the last time that you will hurt me
this is the last time you've destroyed my hope
i'm moving on
you built this up the best you could
but there things misunderstood
like how to love ,and how to care
and always trying to be there
when life hard and i fell down
you left me crawling on the ground
you let me suffer and you didn't care
and all i needed was you there
its time for me to be moving on, to start the life that's not
begun
i'm moving on
i'll be fine after you have gone
without you life will still go on
but neither hope nor bliss
will undo the shit that you have done
i'm moving on
3.Broken Heart Cliche
who the hell do you think you are
telling me how to live my life
you were
never so involved, never so distressed
by the choices that I've made
and my
questioning the rest
you point the finger, you cast the first stone
get up on your cross, and leave me to my own
you are known as a liar
and more known as a traitor
one who is a user
a self-serving abuser
who can't go through the day without finding some loser
who will suck up to you and your thoughts and your views
you twist and distort and mangle the truth
you point the finger, you cast the first stone
get up on your cross, you fucking martyr,
and leave me to my own
who the hell did i think i was
letting myself get in so deep
letting you take my strength and wasting it away
letting myself become a broken heart cliche
what the hell has happened to me
I've lost my being my identity
living your life like my own disappeared
and everything is twisting
reality is missing
this is the very thing that i feared
and everything is twisting
reality is missing
this is the very thing that i feared
who the hell did i think i was
letting myself get in so deep
letting you take my strength and wasting it away
letting myself become a broken heart cliche
what the hell has happened to me
I've lost my being my identity
living your life like my own disappeared
and everything is twisting
reality is missing
this is the very thing that i feared
4.The Fall
5.Godless
So many days I can't stop myself
From fighting this monster that eats me alive
So many times I've fought and I've tried
To live for a moment without fearing my mind
I hate this, yet live this, and it's bringing me down
I feel like I'm standing on uneven ground
The balance to life has been skewered so violent
I'm so sick of this death-instinct silence
So despondent and so somber, so frail
So scared to begin for the fear I will fail
I'm alone in this pattern and I can't call for grace
I'm left in this mess that is such a disgrace
I fear for my mind more than I fear for life
The one thing worth saving is the love I deny
For I feel so hollow, and I yearn to relent
The control for some peace and freedom from this torment
There's no one to save me and I can't save myself
I would give my whole being for some kind of help
But no one can stop this god damn monster so great
All hope is now lost and it's too late
I numb to forget, to quiet the noise
I'm deafened by silence, I can't live with myself
I numb to forgive, for myself can't forget
That I could've been someone without any regret
You lying man who tells a tale
Of flawless love and peace of mind,
Of parting seas and curing blind
Your lies my faith, there's no remorse
You spin your tale with brutal force
Your lies, my faith, my breathing grace
I ran from life, I erased my faith
I am so blind
And seeing eyes are not the kind
6.I Can't Be The One
In the silence
In this poisonous room
With no space to breathe
As you hover and loom
Guilt held over my head
It's to heavy to take
I feel myself breaking
under the weight of mistakes
You constantly say
I have room to improve
? doesn't reach higher
You never improve
This life of these games
They become so apparent
And I break through the void
and leave you in torment
(Torment)
(Chorus)
I will be the one who remains unbroken
I will be the one who speaks words unspoken
I will be the one who doesn't accuse
I will be the one who doesn't abuse
I won't be the one who constantly blames
I won't be the one who plays fucking games
I won't be the one you control anymore
I want you to know as I walk out the door
I can't ???
and you shouldn't have mine
you're dependent and sick
Though you deny, deny
Disappointing your curse
So shut off from life
You're too proud to admit
So you lie, you lie
I can't save your solace
cause you're lacking a heart
I can't say you're broken
Though your falling apart
I can't guide you away
from the path you must take
We will only find ruin
pain and heartache
(Chorus) X2
7.Visceral, Venom Of My Being
8.Tear Down The Walls
so uncaring, so unkind. you've built my walls up high. dead
emotion. and no devotion. you've no idea why. given up lay me
up. there's no reason to forgive. dead inside, leave a shell,
when there's nothing to give.
your face shows disgrace. which leaves you cold and blind.
you're no bleeding heart. can't hold onto the time. where
spirits collide and minds thrive. you have no heart. you're so
enwrapped in your web of lies
9.Hypocrite And Contradict
10.Third Party
Don't ever say you think of me
I don't want to be in your memory
A part of you, apart from me
There's nothing left of this to speak
Don't ever speak my name again
I don't want to be some fucking sordid tale
That is all just lies and fallacy
I don't want to be your history
I know you heard I'm doing well
And as far as I can tell
Another day has passed since I've fled
And you haven't said a word
So I'll tell you what my secret is to moving on like I did
Oh I'll tell you what my secret is to moving on
So rise above, you stupid man
And bear your face as the guide you are
You'll realize you're nothing, fake pretense of caring soul
And a mockery of heart
I pay your dues
I bide my time
I curse your name below a sigh
You boil my blood, you relentless fuck
You make my life a living hell
How dare you insult those dear to me
All the names and sins you portray
The projection game is so fucking old
And you're the only one to blame
I know you've heard I'm doing well
And as far as I can tell, another day has passed since I've fled
Oh yes I fled
I'm no longer in your hell
Another day has passed since I've left, oh god I left
I'll tell you what my secret is to moving like I did...
11.The Mercy Seat
It began when they come took me from my home
And put me in Dead Row,
Of which I am nearly wholly innocent, you know
And I'll say it again
I am not afraid to die
I began to warm and chill
To objects and their fields,
A ragged cup, a twisted mop
The face of Jesus in my soup
Those sinister dinner meals
The meal trolley's wicked wheels
A hooked bone rising from my food
All things either good or ungood
And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I'm yearning
To be done with all this measuring of truth
An eye for an eye
A tooth for a tooth
And anyway I told the truth
And I'm not afraid to die
Interpret signs and catalogue
A blackened tooth, a scarlet fog
The walls are bad Black Bottom kind
They are sick breath at my hind
They are sick breath at my hind
They are sick breath at my hind
They are sick breath gathering at my hind
I hear stories from the chamber
How Christ was born into a manger
And like some ragged stranger
Died upon the cross
And might I say it seems so fitting in its way
He was a carpenter by trade
Or at least that's what I'm told
Like my good hand I
tatooed EVIL across it's brother's fist
That filthy five! They did nothing to challenge or resist
In Heaven His throne is made of gold
The ark of his Testament is stowed
A throne from which I'm told
All history does unfold
Down here it's made of wood and wire
And my body is on fire
And God is never far away
Into the mercy seat I climb
My head is shaved, my head is wired
And like a moth that tries
To enter the bright eye
I go shuffling out of life
Just to hide in death awhile
And anyway I never lied
My kill-hand is called EVIL
Wears a wedding band that's GOOD
'Tis a long-suffering shackle
Collaring all that rebel blood
And the mercy seat is burning
And I think my head is glowing
And in a way I'm hoping
To be done with all this weighing up of truth
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And I've got nothing left to lose
And I'm not afraid to die
And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I'm yearning
To be done with all this measuring of truth
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And anyway there was no proof
Nor a motive why
And the mercy seat is awaiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I'm yearning
to be done with all this measuring of truth
A life for a life and a truth for a truth
And anyway there was no proof
And I'm not afraid to die
And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is smoking
And in a way I'm hoping
To be done with all this looks of disbelief
An eye for an eye
And a tooth for a tooth
And anyway I told the truth
And I'm not afraid to die
And the mercy seat is waiting
And I think my head is burning
And in a way I'm yearning
To be done with all this measuring of truth
An eye for an eye
A tooth for a tooth
And anyway I told the truth
And I'm not afraid to die
And the mercy seat is smoking
And I think my head is melting
And in a way I'm helping
To be done with all this twisted of the truth
A lie for a lie
And a truth for a truth
And I've got nothing left to lose
And I'm not afraid to die
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