1.You're Sicko Dad
Faithlessness is the alien creature
In my drive in feature
It fills the screen when you invade my dreams.
But paranoia is my own decision,
I gave you the knife, but I made the incision.
I poured the salt.
Yeah, this is all my fault.
Can't let you know me. Can't let you fear me.
If you knew what I was thinking you would never come near me.
So step back, breathe deep
White pill, light sleep
If you truly knew me, you'd see I'm harmless
I am drifting in a rowboat I'm deaf, dumb, and armless.
I can't scream, I can't move
So I dream my own truths about you.
This mattress holds me. This blanket hides me.
The radio sings to the creature inside me.
The night is wet. Am I sleeping yet？
I don't think so 'cause I still miss you.
If I was asleep then the creature could kiss you.
No I'm still here, and you're nowhere near.
Do I think you love me？ I can't be certain
As the headlights pass, your precious silhouette on the curtain.
Is this real？ Are you here？
Do you feel my fear, my dear？
2.Pig
Pig, yeah you. I'm curious what you'll do.
You can hear what we think about you.
Pig, admit it you did it, it's true.
Big, big fear, Strange whispering in your ear
Three A.M., distorted voices grow suddenly clear
And the Pig don't wanna, don't wanna be here.
We're on your head when you come around
Yeah we knock you down
We're in your eyes when you look around
We're all around
Outside your world is breaking down
Cause we burned it down
Can't be happy, can't be happy now, no how
Pig, fuck you, FUCK YOU
Don't tell me now what you'll do
I look at you, I look at you, I see all the way through
Yeah Pig, don't wanna, don't wanna be a
Pig, don't wanna, wanna be a
Pig, don't wanna, wouldn't wanna be you.
3.Silver Moon
Foolish daydreams at nighttime, talk to the moon
Outside my lurks my future
Can't close my eyes cause it might come
And I'd miss it for sleeping, that would be shameful
Dad made sure I'm ready to snatch it up.
Mom made me grateful for the chance.
To earn what I really need
Don't dare go to sleep
Opportunity knocks but once, and sometimes she where's a glove.
Scary nightmares, important cause they keep you ready
Or else you'd be happy and content
And grin like a lovesick idiot.
Think Einstein split atoms while
He was fast asleep？ I seriously doubt it.
Got to get ready I need a shower. I've got commitments
Got to drain the ocean by lunchtime
I'll make the sky fall by afternoon.
You'll have to excuse me silver moon.
4.Breakfast
Don't play with that.
Put that away don't play with that. It's not a toy.
Don't act like that.
What kind of way to act is that little boy？
Ooh, and I don't believe I heard you right.
Where did you learn a word like that, you little brat？
Half gram for crotch
Fair trade for what your mama's got, she did the math.
We're here to watch
Watch and make sure the whore next door gets a bath.
Oh, won't you ease up from the knees up girl.
Get squeaky-clean got lots of time
Cause it's my dime
Yeah baby, I'm next in line.
It's another empty day.
You missed breakfast again
Cause Ma don't cook when she ain't breathing
And God won't bring you no food.
He don't believe in you, not like I do, so I'm begging.
Don't play with that.
Put that away, you gonna get us killed.
Ah boy, don't play with that.
It's a repulsive situation, you want to change your habitat
But not like that.
Ah, self indulgence is your mommy
So self employment is your pop
He got on top
Made his drop
And couldn't stop
Consequently, you're here today
And I'll make you breakfast steak and eggs
Just please put that away.
5.1 To 10
Well ain't that just fucking peachy I just get turned 'round
right.
And I'm turned around again.
I feel my skull getting itchy, keep me up all night.
Scratching again and counting to ten.
Sucking black hole in my stomach get no sustenance.
No way to fill it up.
It's got my soul on the run. Think it just ran down my pants.
Cause I don't really care if it ain't happening down there.
Oh god I'm horny again and counting to ten.
Life and survival ain't supposed to be rivals
But war's begun between food and fun.
I'm stuck in the middle with less than a little.
It's not enough, it winds me up.
Once again one to ten.
Well ain't that just fucking ducks I finally found my niche.
My reason to exist.
On life's highway I work at the Stucky's wasting every dish.
It's a mystery no more. I'm king janitor.
Scrubbing again and counting to ten.
Well ain't that just fucking precious I'm trying to look cute
again.
Like when I was a boy.
Just what bizarre kind of message am I trying to send？
A boy among men, can't be as old as my friends.
I'm at the mirror again counting to ten.
6.Mr. Shepherd's Bandage
Oh, a million miles an hour, a thousand times a night.
I watch them burn red, Red rockets in my sight.
1944, Second World War,
At Ansio, we kicked in Mussolini's door.
That's when it came. German steel, Italian rain
Ripped razors through my leg and sent me back home.
Opened up my eyes, lovely VA nurse
Said Mr Shepherd, you made it through the worst.
But she don't know what she means, 'cause she ain't seen what
I've seen.
The worst gets worse every night in every dream.
Hot rockets hiss, hard violence, soft prom night kiss.
The first eighteen years add up to this.
Whispered on the rockets' hiss
It goes on and on.
Seems like a thousand years fell down, down on him.
A thousand fears ground down all around him.
Jagged edge gone soft with time,
And Mr. Shepherd's just fine.
At least that's what we believe 'cause we don't want to see.
He's still laid bare to the bone below his knee.
Here he comes again. I recognize his walk.
Sit right there Mr. Shepherd, please don't talk.
While cotton gauze still running red without a pause
While everyone forgets the cause
Of the horror there beneath the gauze
That goes on and on
For Mr. Shepherd.
7.The Trees
They can't hear the rumbling voice of history
Say give your babies a kiss for me
Because they have led the devil to your door.
Rosie woke up; she pored coffee in her cup.
The black glue to stick to a morning on a night that got away.
Lipsticked collagen, half a dozen aspirin.
Another perfect head atop another perfect day.
She don't believe that's too much to ask
For a trip back to high school if she got the cash
She says 'time is money and money is me,
And I'll take a couple decades of the best I'll ever be.'
They're so goddamn proud that they're such animals
But, they don't know that they're cannibals
And that's why they'll end up gnawing on themselves.
William is a wizard, his magic touch
Turns more than anyone could use to nowhere near enough.
A billion golden blessings ride the wire to his door
Too many reasons to be happy leave a fellow wanting more.
That's why he bought the Puget Sound from under mother earth
'Cause microchips and satellites make more than God is worth.
So you tap your keyboard and you pet your mouse,
And know that you are not alone 'cause William's in your house.
And the temperature of the ocean goes up by two degrees
While they patch the fractured sky with suntan lotion
And tell everyone to stay beneath the trees.
The general is pissed. He shakes his fist
At the wind up from the west that blows the desert in his eyes
Generals with chemicals and hordes of angry radicals
Frighten other generals who rain down from the skies
Meanwhile all of Hollywood pays William their respect
As the latest great philanthropist because he wrote a check
And Rosie calls her agent wants to host the whole affair.
Says, ''Tell 'em I do real tears so put me on the air.'
Ignorance is bliss, but the consequence is
When even water burns there won't be time for them to turn
And see if anyone is close enough to kiss them bye bye.
8.No Laughing
This conversation just turned again.
Why do we always end up talking about me and my lack of friends？
And I finally found a point to pink you down, and then
You duck you swerve you've struck a nerve again.
Don't tell me nothing I can't do without.
You say you're only trying to help me but I have my doubts.
Don't think you didn't yell at me just 'cause you didn't shout.
Yeah you're speaking softly but thinking awfully loud
And I'd love to be right, sometimes I almost am,
Except the ten million reasons and ways I don't understand.
Had the lack of sense to believe that I was doing alright.
Long day tomorrow, won't get no sleep tonight.
Remember, Once it's spoken it don't go away.
Though the anger hops a freight train the monsters always stay.
Tomorrow's empty feelings ride the insults of today.
Mouthful to earful be careful of what you say.
And I know I'm sorry but don't laugh at me.
I might even deserve it but please don't laugh at me.
See, I'm on the run from my father's son but he won't let me be.
You're leaving me no place to hide
From my reflection in his eyes.
He don't like me and I don't know why,
And I am haunted by my own life.
So please don't laugh at me.
9.Oscillator
Faithlessness is the alien creature
In my drive in feature
It fills the screen when you invade my dreams.
But paranoia is my own decision,
I gave you the knife, but I made the incision.
I poured the salt.
Yeah, this is all my fault.
Can't let you know me. Can't let you fear me.
If you knew what I was thinking you would never come near me.
So step back, breathe deep
White pill, light sleep
If you truly knew me, you'd see I'm harmless
I am drifting in a rowboat I'm deaf, dumb, and armless.
I can't scream, I can't move
So I dream my own truths about you.
This mattress holds me. This blanket hides me.
The radio sings to the creature inside me.
The night is wet. Am I sleeping yet？
I don't think so 'cause I still miss you.
If I was asleep then the creature could kiss you.
No I'm still here, and you're nowhere near.
Do I think you love me？ I can't be certain
As the headlights pass, your precious silhouette on the curtain.
Is this real？ Are you here？
Do you feel my fear, my dear？
10.Bleach
Oh, it's filthy in here. Garbage wall to wall,
And I don't wanna be the king of dirt no more.
Things are different.
There are people here who deserve a shiny world,
A world where innocence is a bright white tile floor.
So I'll be the bleach, I'll be the deadly disinfectant
I will destroy everything that makes you sick
And turns your pink heart black.
There is terror here, a sneaky sick belief
That I will never have the guts to make things clean.
So I'll be the bleach, I'll be the deadly disinfectant
I will destroy everything that makes you sick
And turns your pink heart black.
I'll be the bleach. I'll be the clean that makes your eyes burn.
I am here to let you know, that if you go,
And the dirty world attacks, I will bring you back.
I will bring you back.
11.Bilge Rat
Listened to me. Saw right through me.
Didn't know me like you thought you knew me.
That's the danger of calling someone friend.
Hard heart, no pulse, still veins,
The vision comes over and over again.
Mistake you made
You jumped in and honestly thought it was safe.
My brave new heart will wander the streets like a dog.
My arms will reach out to you and I'll scream I love you.
12.Mysterious
I won't let it bother me. Let it remain a mystery.
Will always be nonsense to me.
I don't care. I can't care now that I see.
That it ain't like I thought it was. I can't believe I thought
it was
The way I thought it was because
I'm so smart. I'm too smart and too tough.
Oh it's better to never ask,
'cause we live in a world of glass
And we each got a pile of stones.
Don't want no one to throw one.
And I don't want to talk too much, or take the chance I'll say
too much.
'Cause everyone's so serious. We're all so mysterious.
Children of children are busy being scary
while social wraps their babies up in groceries
And tries not to get caught over here.
It got how it is 'cause we don't know all that we think we know.
No we don't.
Over here we make fashion from fear
Yeah that's how it is. We're all Manson over here.
We're all so mysterious.
We're not so mysterious.
13.Humilliation
They got their white pine wooden boy.
Yeah you're a puppet dancing, dangling on the company line.
They find your hole. They make a fist and shove it up it.
They pulls your trigger and that suits you just fine.
'Cause you think you're high on high class white temptation.
Humiliation is what you're on.
No goal! (his foot was in the crease)
The devil painted lunatic, yeah ain't he dreamy？
A girl like you just got to stroke the wolf.
He locks you in that midnight gaze you get so creamy.
You think his wagging tongue is proof enough
That he wants to give you frilly soft sensations
Humiliation, that's all he's got.
You ain't losing nothing, Least that's what you think.
But when you bend over the fountain to drink
Your boss got a rocket, your man got a club.
Your dignity traded for money or love.
Once you've pissed it out can't drink it up again.
Once you're satisfied it's all humiliation.
14.Peanut
Thirty five thousand names in the
Name your baby book she picked the one most perfectly precious
To help Peanut keep every last promise her mommy had made.
'Peanut laugh, Peanut smile, no Peanut don't cry. It ain't
adorable
Angels ain't Angels with snot nose and red running eyes.'
Everyday of every year she'd get so much bigger
While mom and her man only shrank from the truth they had made
'Peanut, you're here to be my sweet accessory, to look so good
on me
I know you're tired and hungry, but what about me？'
They beat her stride by at least a foot and a half.
'For Christ sake Peanut, keep up.'
Every day, twice a day, they'd walk past my window.
They smoke and they chat and drag their pink baby fat ball and
chain.
'Not today not today, no never today. You should know by now.
When people who like me are waiting, kid, it ain't your day.'
They beat her stride at least a foot and a half.
'For Christ sake Peanut, keep up.
'Cause I can't let you be why I don't have,
Don't have nearly enough of all life's sparkly stuff.
For Christ sake Peanut, keep up.
15.Tie Me Up
Tie me up, you better tie me up.
Oh the dreams, at night I make you sorry in my dreams.
If you could see the ways I make you sorry in my dreams.
You'd tie me up, you better tie me up.
You brought out the hell in me the night you made her cry.
Now there's not a cell in me that wants to let you slide.
it's raining. Nowhere to hide when the rain comes down.
Oh the dreams, I'd tie me up if I was you.
'Cause dreams like these have such a sneaky way of coming true
(yeah they do)
Tie me up, you better tie me up.
16.Scary Eyes
Scary eyes where'd she get them scary eyes？
'Cause they look and they laugh, they don't cry.
Though they can be very nice, or even very very nice.
They watch me. I fall down and I die.
They make me wanna feel like I got no future.
Just leave me where I lie.
'Cause she's killed me with her scary eyes.
Busted up, how'd I get so busted up？
I don't know. Just know that I am.
All torn up, like she hit me with a cement truck.
I'd get up if I could, but I can't
There's something about the way that she don't say nothing.
Makes me understand how busted up I really am.
Oh, the hell of my pride,
Is there in her scary eyes.
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