1.Blood
I wish it was someone elses blood on the jonnie.
It's in my mouth and under my nails.
I wish i'd woken up in someone elses bed.
Wish i was the wind in someone elses sails.
I've no-one in particular in mind right now.
It was inevitable we'd end up in the sack.
I should have known you'd want to try again.
But i'm looking forward now
I'm not stepping back.
My last lover's playing with a new man now.
It's only three weeks we've been apart.
They sat together and he sent her flowers.
Well he can fucking keep that fickle disco tart.
'cause i've had it up to here with little girls.
She looked ugly today day, smoking her fag.
Just like a schoolgirl trying to look grown-up.
Now i'm looking for a woman but i'll settle for a shag.
2.Coming Down
Make me reflective, introspective
Make me the violence, and explain my silence.
Cause its never too late to fill me with hate...
So pull away, go, make me look cool.
And she looks best, sunday mornings, coming down.
So what will i achieve, and who should i believe.
I lick her slit, as it tightens its grip.
My drugged up kiss. so hey, have something else.
Its hard to conceal the way i feel.
And she looks best, sunday mornings, coming down.
It seems that some wanker makes her darker
Sights her hair.
3.Deeper
I'd been to a friends house for dinner.
My mum wanted me home early so i said i'd better go home.
Her sister said she was going anyway so she could walk me some
of the way
And she knew a shortcut through the woods.
She had long black hair, green eyes.
I wish my friends could have seen me.
We seemed to get on well, on the way
Cconsidering the age gap.
She was nineteen and i was almost fifteen.
She stopped by the river,
And asked me to go swimming.
I was a bit embarrased. i said no.
But she said she would anyway, stepped back, and stripped.
The sun was beginning to set, as she slipped into the water.
And when she was in she kept teasing me, so i gave in.
But i kept my pants on.
The water was warmer than i'd expected.
We swam around and played.
She had pushed me under the water.
I could feel her legs against mine underneath.
She'd hold my arm.
We must've been in about an hour.
I got out first.
I leaned against a tree and put my trousers back on
And then she got out of the river and walked towards me.
She put her hands on the tree above my head
Pushed herself against me, and leaned down and kissed me.
I don't know how long it lasted.
Then she stepped back, bundled up her clothes and said 'i'm sure
you can find your own way from here'.
I ran back along the path.
I was late home and i gave my mum some excuse.
She beleived it.
Then the next day at school
My friend invited me round for dinner again
I said no.
4.Driving
I was awake i overheard your speech.
My ego dried and sank.
Talked with your ex and we agreed
Thought of your sister helped us wank.
I'm sure you know that i have fancied her since she began high
school.
But back in then, and i will promise i will let your engine
cool.
I have matured, i've come of age, my visions clear.
But there's still some things that i don't want to hear.
And i know that it was probably just those e's, but be a bit
more thoughtful next time, please.
While i'm alive, well, i just drive.
Each time i scored i just got bored.
And that's no bollocks ... i am just a slut.
5.General Plea To A Girlfriend
I can't make boasts about my body.
The workmanship is somewhat shoddy.
Sometimes i overwork my gob.
Can't buy you gifts i've got no job.
I know you find my habits sickly.
I know sometimes i come too quickly.
I don't mind jocks slide two-stoke wonder.
Just don't slash my trust to thunder.
6.Gourmet
I'm waiting for a service, waiting in vain.
She's waiting on another man, no one drank again.
She flashed me the menu, working smell on her lips.
Led me just enough. i shouldn't have tipped.
I say 'well', the food there was crap.
The other one there, i didn't give two glances.
She's in love with my soul - she think's i'm attractive.
She forraged a smile, i saw the floor.
She tried again, i examined the ashtray.
I say 'well'.
But i still make the mistake of eating where the food is crap.
7.I Work In A Saloon
I work in a saloon, pulling shit pints for shit wages.
It's a busy night tonight.
And the bar is full of all the girls i've ever shagged, or
tampered with, or kissed, or even just fancied.
A pub full of conquests, knockbacks.
Between the laughter i can here my name.
And then, through the gap between the swing doors and floor, i
see your feet.
You push open the doors and walk in
And as always all heads turn.
And the room becomse silent, except for the sound or your dm's
scuffing on the floor.
You stroll through the jealous gaze straight to the bar, smile,
and ask for some exotic cocktail.
But i don't know how to make it.
So you just shrug, smile again, turnaround and leave
And i pull another pint.
8.Kate Moss
Don't try and tell me kate moss ain't pretty.
Don't try and make me believe.
Don't try to force me to let you boss me when i'm pretending to
leave.
I knew that you could ruin my good mood.
That's exactly what you've done.
We sat there silent ,you got violent.
Going out with you used to be fun.
You're getting colder, no doubt you've told her
I've just come past.
Does she know maybe, you're having a baby？
I think it's about time you did that test.
You know i'll miss you when i can't kiss you.
You know i don't want us to split.
Now i must say it's going that way.
You're always bored and full of shit.
9.Little Girls
I will never love you
Do what you will.
I will never lick you
The way i do so well.
You now weaken your voice
'ah, hey'.
I will never talk to you
Do what you will.
You will never make me smile
The way you did so well.
You now meet with your boys
'ah, hey'.
Most of all i will never cry.
My thoughts will never turn to you.
I'll walk through this world making little girls happy.
But not you, no not you.
Do what you will.
Do what you will.
Do what you will.
Do what you will.
You will do what you will.
You will do what you will.
Do what you will.
Do what you will.
10.Phone Me Tonight
Phone me tonight when you're pissed. just to tell me that i'm
missed.
Tell me you want me in your cunt. tell me you're not sure what
you want.
I tried to tell you, i made it clear. i think you make me not
want you here.
Phone me tomorrow when you're sober.
Just to tell me it's all over.
Tell me i'm not wanted in your bed.
Remember one thing you haven't said.
I tried to tell you, i tried to say. i never wanted it to end
this way.
11.The Clearing
Oh, she always used to be the same.
She'd be loose with a straight dark facial frame.
And now the things that used to turn me off, i find endearing.
And they laugh behind the trees and she lays naked in the
clearing.
I adore, but i ignore her.
See, i know it won't last as i reflect upon my past.
But on severance she makes no difference.
There's things i won't let her know, as we're perfecting our
show..
I won't ignore her - i think i'll phone her.
I can't explore her if i ignore her.
And now the things that used to turn me off i find endearing.
And they laugh behind the trees as she lies naked in the
clearing.
But she won't beckon - is what i reckon.
She might adore me, but she'll ignore me.
Tell them to show there, and we get nowhere.
She loves my snoring, so it never get's boring.
She always used to be the same.
She'd be loose with with a straight dark facial frame.
And now the things that use to turn me off, i find endearing.
And they laugh behind the trees and she lays naked in the
clearing.
12.The First Big Weekend
So that was the first big weekend of the summer...
Starts thursday as usual with the canteen quiz and again no-one
wins the big cash prize.
Later i do my sound bloke routine by approaching gina's new
boyfriend to say that he shouldn't feel that there's any
animosity between us and then i even go and make peace with her
shouldn't hav
Hered.
Then on friday night we went through to the arches...
There was only one car going so some of us had to get the train.
we got through quite late. then we went to a pub to take the
gear.
There was no problems getting in - we saw some others waiting
down the front of the queue so we skipped in.
It was a good night - everyone was nutted and i ended up dancing
with some blonde girl.
I thought she had been quite pretty until last night when
matthew informed me that she had, in fact, been a pig.
When the club finished we wandered the streets for a while until
we got to this 24-hour cafe.
I didn't like the look of it so we left and got a taxi back to
morag's flat.
I couldn't sleep so i sat about drinking someone else's
strawberry tonic wine and tried to keep everyone else up.
Then at ten o'clock in the morning we went downstairs to buy
some drink. we had intended to watch the football in the
afternoon but we'd passed out by then and slept right through
it, awaking to
That england had won two-nil.
Then we went to get the train home and had a few in the station
bar.
We had some stuff left from the previous night's supplies so
when we got home we decided to go down to john's indie disco.
Same story as friday - lots of hugging, lots of dancing etc.
etc.
I couldn't sleep again so went to the park to look at the toon,
taking a detour through the playpark.
To get in we had to climb over a ten foot steel fence, which
resulted in severe bruising of our hands, legs and groins, but
we had a good laugh on the stuff, especially the tube-slide,
which pro
Doubles up as a urinal for drunk teens.
Then we walked through the woods to have a look at the toon. big
disappointment, but the mist on the lake was cool.
Sunday afternoon we go up to john's with a lot of beer in time
to watch the simpsons - it was a really good episode about love
always ending in tragedy except, of course, for marge and homer.
it
Quite moving at the end and to tell you the truth my eyes were a
bit damp.
Then we watched these young girls in swimsuits have a water
fight in the street.
We went up to the pub about ten.
It was busy for a sunday night, lots of people we know,
including my first ever girlfriend who i still find very
attractive, quite frankly, but i didn't really speak to her
She's probably still a bitch, anyway.
Her friend gillian was there, i had a chat with her, she was
still quite pleasant.
At the same time i watched malcolm make some terrible attempt to
try and chat up a girl we know called jo. he made some remark
about her skirt that was barely there the previous night or
somethi
R＞
I couldn't sleep again that night, thanks to some seriously
disturbing nightmares...matthew says i should cut down on the
cheese.
'went out for the weekend, it lasted for ever, high with our
friends it's officially summer.'
I got some sleep eventually on monday afternoon.
It was a beautiful day, and later that evening malcolm
introduced me to the power of merrydown - ？.79 a litre, 8.2% -
mmmm.....
Judith and laura came round later and we sat in my back garden
and drank.
Then matthew came round and we went up the town.
It's officially summer.
13.The Smell Of Outdoor Cooking
14.Wasting
Half nine i'm glued to you, then i'll disappear. call your other
side it lasted three year.
Fuck love, fight love, fuck love, fight.
Fuck love and chuck love 'til tomorrow night.
Then start again and lose again. small tablet of pleasure.
Fight jock. fuck. fuck love forever.
Fuck love, fight love, fuck love, fight.
Fuck love and chuck love 'til tomorrow night.
Held tight i was wrong. c-coldsore cunt.
Sorry for losing respect malc
I was wasted on that slut.
Held tight i was wrong c-coldsore cunt.
Sorry for loosing respect - i was wasted on that slut.
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